It truly is almost the end of the day and again it will be nice to sleep in my own bed with my two dogs. House sat again last night for my friend. Her dogs are little and do well with me and they sleep on the bed just like mine do.
As I watch A sit on the couch with her "boy" friend I think back to when I was that age and younger and wanted to date and or at least go out with a guy as a friend but, was not allowed to because of my brother- in - law. He was jealous and would not let me go anywhere so I really can't tell A how it was with me. There was a guy in high school that I liked but that's as far as it went because I was afraid of what my brother-in-law would do.
I did have a boy friend in foster care but only went out with him a few times. End of the dating scene. I have often wondered how my life would have been if I had had the opportunity to date.
My Pastor was talking about healing and being whole today. You know you are whole when you can have past memories come flooding in and not have them send you in a tizzy. Thank God for healing and wholeness and forgiveness.
I had to go to Mesilla Valley Hospital a few weeks ago to make an appt. for A and I started to hyperventilate just being back in that building. Then when the appt. day came and I had to go back to the room with her it took everything in me not to let A know how nervous I was. I had flashes of when I was there and all my therapy appts. Oh boy, here we go on a journey of the emotions, let's see just how whole I am.
Be blessed and good night.
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