Truly it is the end of the day. Ready for a good nights sleep in my own bed with my own dogs. I do enjoy house/dog sitting but I do long for my own bed sometimes.
So I finally did something that I have longed to do but could not because I have never been blessed with kids . I took my foster daughter shopping yesterday at the mall with a friend of mine and her daughter!! You would think this would be just a simple little thing but for someone who has had to sit back and watch other women do this it has been hard, my heart has sank many times, and I have to admit I have questioned God on why I was never blessed with children but, over the years I have come to terms with being childless.
I know God has His reasons and the day will come when I will be able to understand.
Do kids ever realize that arguing with the adult gets them no where? I wonder if I was this argumentive with my own family members or my foster family? I certainly hope not.
Now that I have a kid I find myslef being more alert to things around me. I thought I was aware of my surroundings being a single woman but my senses seem to be more ALIVE now, not sure if this makes sense but it is what it is. I'm sure all parents feel the same way. I guess not all parents feel this way, if they did their kid would not be in the foster care system.
How do we help others, how do we help ourselves? We don't but God does and if we listen to Him then we can. I am so very thankful that I listened to His voice and helped myself so now I am able to help others.
Be blessed and good night.
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