Well I am at a loss for words for my foster daughter. She still is doing things to get into trouble and she knows full well that it is the end of the line for her if she gets caught using and or having a dirty urine test.
I am now escorting her to and from class until the end of school, thank good ness it is for only two weeks. No gratitude for anything I do, I wonder if other kids treat their parents like Ashley treats me? Not even a Happy Foster Parent Day from her.
Today was a intersting day. I think she took something from a kid at school then pop it in her mouth, but of course she denied it. Then tonight yelling and using the F word at me, then stormed off to her room. She calls her social worker and tells her that she doesn't like all these rules but she won't take any responsibility for her actions, she has brought all this upon herself and she does not see this. How do you make her see it.
Goodnight and be blessed
Monday, May 10, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
The End of The Day
I'm helping someone who does not want to help herself. When do you know when to give up? I know A is only 17 and may not have the ability to know the difference and how to say NO but then I say to myself she knows full well what she is doing.
I finally looked up and let God take full charge of my life and my healing. I know this is what A needs but she has not confessed her sins and accepted Him into her heart so until she does, and she knows she needs to, it will be hard for her to give up the using.
My emotions are all over the place. I am scared for her. I don't want her to fail, I want to do what I can, but she needs to do things for herself also for me to continue giving 100%.
The Jackson's got moved in next door on the first and all went well. Carolyn was wiped out but rested. Did not make it to church Sunday but that's OK. Have tried to help her un-pack but just have not been able, plus Carolyn and Bruce have not been home and or they are napping.
I just pray that my friend does not suffer.
I see the door to the old house clearer and clearer in my mind. I do not want to open it as I know what is behind it,filth,vulgarities,fear,sadness, do I need to go on. I hear the screams coming out from that house but can't go near it, not now.
Good night and be blessed.
I finally looked up and let God take full charge of my life and my healing. I know this is what A needs but she has not confessed her sins and accepted Him into her heart so until she does, and she knows she needs to, it will be hard for her to give up the using.
My emotions are all over the place. I am scared for her. I don't want her to fail, I want to do what I can, but she needs to do things for herself also for me to continue giving 100%.
The Jackson's got moved in next door on the first and all went well. Carolyn was wiped out but rested. Did not make it to church Sunday but that's OK. Have tried to help her un-pack but just have not been able, plus Carolyn and Bruce have not been home and or they are napping.
I just pray that my friend does not suffer.
I see the door to the old house clearer and clearer in my mind. I do not want to open it as I know what is behind it,filth,vulgarities,fear,sadness, do I need to go on. I hear the screams coming out from that house but can't go near it, not now.
Good night and be blessed.
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