The End of The Day

I heard this saying the other day and thought how true it is and that we all need to take it to heart and live by it."Everything has a life span,enjoy it while you can."
Whether or not we know when our time is up we need to make time for friends and family. Housework can wait, but friends and family don't.
Is one smart remark between you and someone worth a lifetime apart? Isn't life about relationships? How then do we heal from broken relationships? It is in letting our pride go and asking for forgiveness.
In fostering A I am trying to teach her these things, she seems to think she has all the answers and just won't listen to me. We are now in another sticky situation because she won't listen. I know there has to be alot of pent up emotions that she won't let go of and tries to talk herself into everything is allright, she keeps saying the past is the past we are living in the future now, no need to talk about anything.
I want to do things for her and with her but the loss of two part time jobs has put a wrench in this as there is no extra money to do little extra things. What a bummer. Will look for another part time job soon.
I really enjoy foster care and hope and pray that Iam doing the right thing. I still feel God's peace and I know He knows my money situation and if A has to do time He knows I need another kid for income. I am human so I have to say I do worry, then try to give it to Him.
Good night and be blessed.

The End of The Day

On death and dying wish I did not have to write these words down, but un-fortunately they are in my vocabulary now. As I was thinking about my friend, I thought about the time many years ago when I was 17 and I had a severe asthma attack. I remember sitting on the edge of the bed waiting for the nurse to come in to start my IV and I had to go to the bathroom so bad that I, not sure how I made it to the bathroom but I did. I'm sitting on the pot and then I really can't breathe. I remember trying to hollar for help but had no air, I looked up and I saw this beast, hairy, smelly and had long finger nails. The eyes were dark and no expression I knew it was the devil.
I had been to church a little bit but never had accepted Jesus into my life but I knew about the devil and I figured my time was up. everything went black and I remember waking up back in the bed but oh so very cold, it was as though I was in an ice box. Several people around me all upset. My foster parents, my social worker and I think my foster brother was there. While in ICU they told me I had died. They had to use the defibrilator to get my heart going again.
Don't remember anything but being so very cold and of course losing my bladder and bowels. If that's not embarrassing I don't know what is.
Everyone at school treated my differently, like I was a miracle, maybe I was.
It's been a while since I thought about this wasn't ready to die back then, guess God had other plans. Now that I know Him I am ready to die whenever He says it is time. No fear as I know where I am going, to be with my heavenly father and sit at His feet and see my Mom again.
Be blessed and good night.

The End of The Day

When we think about our life we need to think about others also. I can't even think of what Iwant to say, my mind is racing thinking about how I personally get upset easily when things don't go the way I think they should or as easy as it should. Today was one of those days then I think of my friend who is really sick and none of my frustrations seem to matter.
It's been a hard few weeks emotionally but I am committed in helping my friend get through what she is going through.
I won't lie I have quetioned God, I have been angry, I have cried, I 'm worried, my faith is wavering, I am not sure what to do, to say, to think, to feel.
I know my God is in control.
Be blessed and good night.

The End of The Day

I am back. Don't even know where to begin. Life has thrown a wrench into my thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc. My sister closed the flower shop and a good friend of mine is sick. God has shown Himself to me though this past week right when I needed Him. I need to hold on and trust that God has everything under control.
Good night and blessings